How do you deal with an embarring family situation? (Trying to make a fresh start)?

I can relate...I recently (over the last year) lost an aunt to suicide, and am no longer close with my uncles or any of my cousins. The only family I am close to is my mother, but I constantly feel as though I am disappointing her so it hurts to talk to her even though I miss her terribly. Also, I lost all of my friends over the last year, so it's just me and my husband (who is always out somewhere). I've made a couple new friends, but its really hard to open up now...I really want to be able to trust people but it's so incredibly hard, especially after every single one of my friends stabbed me in the back. All I can say is, if anyone asks about your family, just casually say you'd rather not talk about it. And keep your head up, there will come a day when you find someone who will love you for you, and not your family or your past or whatever (a friend or special other, either one). I hope everything looks up for you soon :(