OK I FIG NO ONE CAN ANSWER THIS?

OK WELL HERES MY QUESTION WHAT DO I WANT. IM 26 YEAR OLD MALE AND IVE A PROBLEM IM CONFUSSED ABOUT LOVE AND WHAT I WANT AND STUFF. FIRST OFF IVE NEVER BEEN THE TYPE TO JUST SLEEP AROUND BUT HERE LATELY I HAVE THOUGHT ABOUT IT ALOT AT TIMES I FILL LIKE I MISSED OUT CAUSE I NEVER DONE THAT STUFF PLUS ALL THE GIRLS AROUND HERE HAVE SO ITS LIKE I DIDNT DO THAT STUFF THINKING IT WOULD BE GOOD BUT WHAT DOES IT DO WHEN THE CHICKS HAVE DONE THE SAME STUFF. I ALSO FILL LIKE BY MESSING AROUND IM GONNA LOSE GIRLS THAT COULD BE GREAT LIKE I HAVE THIS ONE GIRL SHE MOVED TO WV WE HAD DATED FOR 2 YEARS AND WELL I NEVER CHEATED ON HER OR ANYTHING BUT I DONT KNOW IF I LOVE HER. I MEAN SHE HAS A GOOD PERSONALITY AND SHES FUN. SHES GREAT IN BED I MEAN ALMOST PERFECT. SHES EVEN WILLING TO TRY ANYTHING JUST ABOUT I SUGGEST. SHE DID HAVE FLAWS LIKE EVERY ONE THEY WERE MOSTLY IN THE RESPONSABLITY FLAWS. UH I MEAN I JUST FILL LIKE MAYBE THERES SOMETHING MISSING OR IS IT BECAUSE IM A TYPICAL MALE AND I WANNA MESS AROUND. I MEAN LATELY IVE THOUGHT ABOUT IT ALOT I MEAN I WANT LOVE I REALLY DO BUT I DONT KNOW HOW LOVES SUPPOSE TO FILL I DONT KNOW WHAT IM SUPPOSE TO FILL. I THINK IM JUST STUPID I GUESS. OK SORRY YA HAD TO READ ALL THAT LOL